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Sunday, January 28, 2007 quote by Aqila. It makes me feel happy. because she bothers to care about me. "GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: CHEER UP LA(: GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: HEY PPL LIKE THEM ARE NOT WORTH IT U NOE GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: SMILEEE EVEN THOUGH IT'S HARD GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: NEHMIND LA, I ALWAYS EXPERIENCE THIS GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: AND IT ALWAYS COMES TO A POINT WHEN IT'S UNBEARABLE GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: TALK IT OUT GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: IT HELPS : : : GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: SO YA... U MUST LET THEM NOE HOW U FEEL GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: ... SOMETIMES WE R UNKNOWINGLY INSENSITIVE N WE DUN REALISE IT GOLD- our breakthrough AH-MASOH! says: SO WE GOT TO GIVE IN TO OTHERS BUT U MUST ALSO LET THEM NOE THAT THEY SHOULD GIVE IN TOO N STOP BEING INSENSITIVE" quote by LIVIA! she consoles me, so she's senitive to me. what about you? P.S. and please don't force me to do what i don't want to do. you know what you always force me. <- this part is for that person not in 4C this person was online @ 7:02 PM i am pretty moody now as livia predicted. i was pissed ytd by someone. she ignored me for duno what the reason was. i cried you know? cause i feel very betrayed by her. she dun want to reply den dun la, but why must go and fake as if she doesn't know she didn't reply? i hate pple who cheat my feelings! i am so SORRY! i am emotionally weak here! and another reason is the weather is so cold. aiyah, 4 more days to 16 yrs old, i still act so childishy. i think she doesn't like me. if not why wld she not ans me? i only want her to recognise this friendship of ours. but she doesn't care. so why must i bother, it is so heartpain for me, here. my heart aches. seriously. and in class i dun feel much better, let me ask you a qns: do you know how much it feels to be left out? do u know the word sensitivity? do you know the word 'friendship', even? i bet you don't. if not my days at school wouldn't be like hell. HELL? nono, not that much, but i still feel left out here. i don't blame you, i blame myself for not being as sociable you. i blame myself for being lame. i blame myself for being me. it's that okay now? sometimes, i feel so out that i want to dig a hole and bury myself! you'll never understand because you never experience this before. stop apologising. if you think that i am such an irritating person, just tell me earlier, i dun want any makebelieves, cos it will hurt me even more. threesome is such a bad number. when the other two are enjoying themselves, the one will be left out, and they can't see my heart bleeding inside out. i feel left behind. abandoned. so it results in me being very mean to either one of them. when i get the chance i wld just grab one of them. i dun mn to abandon the other one, but if you feel abandoned sometimes, please use ur feelings to understand mine. i feel that always. especially when you two sits in class. threesome threesome threesome! i dun like it. it's either i give up or another add in. and sometimes, i thought you are true friends. i treat you as a true friend, but i am not sure if you ever did that to me. i am sad. i bury all these to myself and today, i am going to burst, so i rant on my blog, i talk to juniors! can u believe it? it is always true pple who are not of the same age understands you best. i talk with juniors. and they are always there for me. they know me best, they will never hurt me. but why you? my friend. you are my friend, not enemy. i write feelings and thoughts in my blog because i don't want to be so blunt and speak right into your face. i don't want to dampen your mood get it? and i don't want to force you to befriend me. i have my plight too, i am not a dummy, u have ur feelings, do u think i dun? whenever i go, i feel so loner. during band, i feel heppy, because i can see aqila and livia and juniors. not because of you. and oso because i get to enjoy my clarinet. i hope you do read this and understand my feelings now. i dun nd you to apologise. i just nd you to understand. this person was online @ 6:23 PM I typed |