Thursday, July 24, 2008

CAUTION: READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK

The story of you and people.

Today, when you and people were doing CCA stuffs, you felt really happy even though you and people were wet, hot and tired. And dirty. You didn’t mind at all. But when everything was carried up to the rooms, it was quite late. So you decided to check your phone. And yes, indeed, there were 11 missed calls. So you called your mummy and told her you were coming back soon. And then, it started raining (finally after so long). So you asked if people was going too or anybody, but they all say it’s raining, so they didn’t want to go. But you know that it should not be an excuse. So you decided to ask people if people was going, but to your disappointment (when you were already standing at the door), people said, “Huh… but it’s raining leh…” and showed no signs of moving. And you, you idiotic girl, asked people, “ Why? Why don’t people want to go?” And of course people don’t know how to answer you. And said, “Huh…?” Well, you jolly well walked off pissfully. And on the verge of bursting, and feeling nauseous.

Well, people went behind you and asked you to walk slower. And what a kind soul you are; what good attitude you have. You told people that you shall go first. (I know you didn’t say it willingly, and felt like crying). Wow, how pleasantly handled. Therefore, people and you didn’t talk through out the whole way. And you kept wondering why? Why did people not want to go… But people is so nice to you! And you still show this kind of attitude towards people, how could you??! Well, you crossed the road without saying bye to people (HOW RUDE) and walked in the rain to your bus stop. At the bus stop, you really felt very horrible and terrible and missed people so badly and like the rain, tears fell out of the already unbearable eyes. Hmmm, serve you right. (Do not, do not ever do things that you’ll regret!) and you don’t know why, you just felt very vexed and unhappy, right? You also don’t know if people’s angry or sad or what.

Sometimes, when you see people, it’s hard to know what people’s thinking, and you’ll feel very vexed but don’t know what to ask people. You are always trying to be happy around people, but everytime you see people being emo, or thinking about things, you’ll have the urge to ask about it. But most of the time when you ask about it, people will sometimes say “nothing lah”. And that disturbs you a lot, isn’t it? So you should just not ask it right? But people’s always so nice to you, and you (what do you do?) nothing! People walk you to the bus stop and you? Ever walk people to their bus stop? What is WRONG with you? WHY? Why always feel sad and emo and cry ‘cause of people? Be happy! Cheer up! People has done nothing wrong, so you should not be angry or always throw an attitude to people eh? People will get tired and sick of you eventually and just like how your old friend left you. Heartbroken eh? So, please, if you’re still humane or still have your brains up there (in your head), wake up!!! Look around and treasure your friendship with people! Don’t be like a kid man. Grow up!

I hope to see an improvement in your anger management in a few days time

Jiayou Shangyu!

This is just one part of you and people.

The above-mentioned story happened to a real you. Okay. “not making any sense”
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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Today was not a horrible day after all, cause Eileen came today! But I was nearly late okay. But still managed to make it on time for flag raising. But since I didn’t see Eileen at first, then okay lor, pretend, but when I turned back I saw Eileen! Haha, I feel happy. Anyways, I turned back immediately lor, then nictay ah, and syahidah, ask me to turn behind, then I refused to, cause I already saw. Then I didn’t even turn to look at Eileen throughout the whole assembly. Cause I shy. Haha (no lah, I was just, aiya dunno) dun like to look bah.

Okay, so went off for my first period which is econs tutorial, and I did only abit. So abit stressed lah, I flunked mye by the way. Then math lec. People take our class’ seats so we had to go infront to sit. We were just sitting behind shirlynn’s class lor. Aiyo, terrible sight. And then after that only have half an hour’s break, so I only ate bread and milo. The horfun looks so nice lor, but too ex, I must try tmr!!! Must. Hahas.

Okay, CSC lesson. Went in when it’s already very full liao, then didn’t get to sit beside Eileen lah. )): makes me even more –choking feeling– dunno how to describe lah. Anyway, I sat beside jiu shi shuo. She damn funny can. Haha, oh I am supposed to be pairing up with her for the CSC project thing. Anyway, throughout the whole CSC lesson, wah, I was really stressed and kept looking at the clock then at my watch. Waiting for it to end. I feel stupid during every CSC lessons. OH MY GOSH! Help me! Someone! Anyone? No one.. aiya. How! I think I will flunk CSC again. Sucks lah. Oh, cheng long, haha, he also very funny. Kept asking me questions, like going for interview. Haha. And xiao tong and him bickering and I am sitting in the middle, so aiyoo… then after the CSC lesson, gave the Doraemon to Eileen! But she like not very happy. ))): upset lah, dunno.

After that during CT, I was quite restless.

“I really don’t know what is on your mind sometimes, and I just don’t know how to get that choking feeling out…”

then I keep aiya, aiyo, then also not thinking about what teacher asked us to do. And yinxue was supposed to tell me smth during math, but we didn’t sit tgt, so I went to her. And as usual I always stick my head very near people’s faces mah, then she kissed me lah. –lost for words- oh man. Haha.

Got back lit results. Sucks lah. Darn it. But funny part was that yinxue got a point five mark for her essay! Lit essay with point five mark. Diao. Mrs teo really very cute can. Haha. Everyone’s depressed. Hmmm. Wonder what’s Eileen doing now. Hahas. Random. Oh, then I lost my pooh badge!! ))): sad sad sad! I am on the verge of crying liao. Gosh. Where’d I lose it man. Sucks sucks. The pooh badge is so precious leh! Given by Eileen. Precious! And I lost it. ))): -WHINES!! Then I was like shouting I lost my pooh badge and qi xuan heard it as smth else and she violated me. =.= like totally turned off can.

TALE OF TWO CEDARIANS ATTACKING ONE CEDARIAN. Headlines man. Haha.

The rest are not much lah. Went to eat with Eileen, then went home.

“ There is always this urge. That I cannot describe it. I really don’t know how to pt it in words. When I see you, my heart aches. But sometimes, I am just so angry that I am not exactly angry at you. I do not know what I am angry at. Just angry. But it dies down. After we part, I will have this feeling of something’s missing. What is it? What? I really don’t know. I have an urge to cry. But I can’t. Stuck. Choked. I just miss you. Every moments.”

Fullstop.
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Friday, July 11, 2008

wahahaha, i can believe that i am actually blogging now. as in, i abandoned my blog for quite some time. i am just bored and seeing eileen having a blog, hmmm, well, anyway i am doing LTC camp reflecctions gosh, havent finish. DIE! alrights. gonna be a short one, gtg now! byee.


SHANGYU (((:
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