Friday, February 23, 2007

what has happened? oh my. what happened to me? why do i think this way? no no i cannot think too much. it's never gonna happen. it's not possible anyway. i don't know about her. she didn't specify! i am so worried and paranoid.
God, help me. why is this happening? this is so not right. it is not right in the first place. this as been happening to me since (let me think...) sec 2. and i thought it would not happen again! but it did again. it is not possible. why? what did she do? nothing. all she did was... i don't know and don't want to know! it is really not right. i won't dare to face her now. so yucks! yucks. disgusting. gross. how can you let this happen to me? i know it's not your fault, it's mine. really. during sec 2 it is also my fault. and i kept all those to myself. i know that person somehow knew. i don't know how to describe. and sec 3. again. i did the same thing again. but it's not same person. damn it. and she knew like duh. oh please. help me get rid ofthis thought! argh. yucks. MCR! i love you. i need mt bed now. tmr going to TKGS. i think they are nice people.

but still tmr. i see her almost everyday.
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