Sunday, February 18, 2007

when i look at you guys. especially your tags and your frequent sayings i want grandpa i nd grandpa. i would sigh to myself, "stop being childish". i would think, has our friendship faded throughout the years? i really think and think. i just don't understand. do you know why i choose to sit with aqila on the bus? because i feel that she understands me better, i feel appreciate when i am with her. she gives me a warmth feeling. i felt the same way with you a few years back, but not now. i don't understand what is the reason. isit, because of me? or you? i really want to talk to you about this, but i guess you'll shoo me off again, saying that i am so troublesome, that is the feeling you always give me. i feel that you always seem happier with others and i can't understand why. sighx. i feel so tired and stressed when i keep getting upset over these matters. then i'll feel guilty that i can't make you people happy and the others can. haix. i know that not everyone like to see my face and be expected to smile and be happy, but as least tell me. not like keep me in the dark. yups. that's really my true feelings. i guess i can't talk to you in person, so i type in my blog, hope you'll understand my side of story now. sighz, i guess i can only sigh and talk to myself now, now that idiotic me had drive everyone away. "serve you right, you bossy sensitive little thing."

i don't want no more misunderstandings.
i just want true friends if that's what you call it.
being there for each other.

sorry once again, f i've hurt you more then once in the past. tahnks for all that you've done in the past -- being middlemen for so many of my friends.

sorry and thanks
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