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Monday, March 12, 2007 well, i am simply such a loner, everywhere. i think you are a third party really. well, just suddenly you appeared in my life and BOOOSH, my life has been disrupted. yes. i just didn't really care during the first days of school this year, cause i was not in the mood to think. and just suddenly everything changed. don't you see? well, you don't see. i go home thinking that i will get better the next day and when i start to think of all those things(i can list a thousand things, thank you very much), i will start to tear, weep and then burst out crying. i feel really upset this year, don't you notice? I WAS ALOT MORE HAPPIER LAST YEAR. right. ooh i didn't notice the CAPS. well, leave it there then. i don't know what to say to you, but what i can do is just to keep all this to myself, when i am all alon then i can let it all out, without you knowing it. it'll be so great if i live all by myself. i can scream, shout, cry or do whatever i want. i want to type some songs. although some are by 'not nice bands' and singers, opps, but it's really how i feel loh. I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain How could this happen to me I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explainwhat happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't ---------------------------------------------------- Now it seems to me that you know just what to say But words are only words, can you show me something else? Can you swear to me, that you'll always be this way Show me how you feel, more than every baby I don't wanna be lonely no more, I don't wanna have to pay for this, I don't wanna know the lover at my door, Its just another heartache on my list I dn't wanna be angry no more, But you know I could never stand for this, So when you tell me that you love me know for sure, I don't wanna be lonely anymore Now it's hard for me, when my heart still on the mend, Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends Can you sing to me, and it's harmony, girl what you do to me is everything, Make me say anything, just to get you back again, why can't we just try? What if I was good to you? What if you were good to me? What if I could hold you 'til I feel you move inside of me? What if it was paradise? And what if we were symphonies? What if I gave all my life, to find some way to stand beside you? I don't wanna be lonely no more, I don't wanna have to pay for this, I don't wanna know the lover at my door, Its just another heartache on my list I dn't wanna be angry no more, But you know I could never stand for this, So when you tell me that you love me know for sure, I don't wanna be lonely anymore I don't wanna be lonely anymore I don't wanna be lonely no more I don't, I don't, I know, I know, I don't want to be lonely anymore ---------------------------------------------------- For all the years that I've known you baby I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold (didn't you say) If there's a problem we should work it out So why you giving me the cold shoulder now Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl (tell me) Okay I know I was late again I made you mad and then it's thrown in (the bin) But why are you making this drag on so long (i wanna know) I'm sick and tired of this silly games (silly games) Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors That's when you turned and said to me I don't care babe who's right or wrong I just don't love you no more Rain outside my window pouring down What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry Feeling like a fool cause I let you down Now it's, too late, to turn it around I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry I guess this time it really is goodbye You made it clear when you said I just don't love you no more I know that I made a few mistakes But never thought that things would turn out this way doesn't make sense to me now that your gone (I see it all so clearly) Me at the door with you in a state Giving my reasons but as you look away I can see a tear roll down your face That's when you turned and said to me I don't care babe who's right or wrong I just don't love you no more Rain outside my window pouring down What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry Feeling like a fool cause I let you down Now it's, too late, to turn it around I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry I guess this time it really is goodbye You made it clear when you said I just don't love you no more Those simple words hit so hard They turn my whole world upside down Girl you caught me completely off guard On the night you said to me I just don't love you more Rain outside my window pouring down What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry Feeling like a fool cause I let you down Now it's, too late, to turn it around I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry I guess this time it really is goodbye You made it clear when you said I just don't love you no more Rain outside my window pouring down What now, you're gone, my fault, I'm sorry Feeling like a fool cause I let you down Now it's, too late, to turn it around I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry I guess this time it really is goodbye You made it clear when you said I just don't love you no more this person was online @ 8:17 PM I typed |