Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I am upset. Now. Immediately. Right now.

Upset.
Not because of my mum or whoever. But because this particular girl who ignored me. I’ve also not ignored her for so long before. While I am doing my stuffs now, I feel so helpless. I want to chat with her, but I have already told her that I’ll not chat with her. I will not take back my words. Therefore, my heart now feels very very suffocated. I can’t tell anyone how I feel. I realize that I can’t tell anyone except her. But, I can’t chat with her. She is ignoring me. I’ve never ever felt so upset in such a quick moment. Suddenly my whole heart felt as if it sank into the deep deep deep grounds. I’ve never cried until I am so sad. And I find no motivation to do exco stuffs anymore. No motivation. My motivation is upset and ignoring me. I am so scared.

I don’t want to be abandoned.
Alone.
I am scared. Can anyone help me?

I am afraid of the meeting tomorrow. I am worried that I will lose my way. My guide and guardian seems to be slowly disappearing. Where is she?
Where are YOU?
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